Letting People In Again
I’m learning how to let people in again—or at least, I’m trying to trust happiness. I want to let them in without suspicion, without fear of their intentions.
I’m still detached from others, but in a healthier way now. I’ve realized that no one else dictates my internal state—I have to cultivate my own peace, regardless of what happens outside of me.
Trust Happiness
Even after three years of healing, I don’t fully understand what’s happening to me. It feels almost surreal, which is silly because I have so much proof of my growth.
I think part of me is still afraid to trust happiness—to believe it’s safe to be happy, that nothing is out to take it away. After so many years of misery, it makes sense that trusting this new life I’ve created is hard.
But I’m learning.
I know that with time, the peace I crave will come. One day, I’ll forget the darkness ever affected me so deeply. I’ll forget the pain and fear, replacing them with courage, power, and strength.
Reflecting on Resilience
I know I’ll look back at these days in awe of my resiliency. Even now, I’m grateful I chose this path—despite its difficulty.
Sometimes, I can’t believe everything I’ve endured. That disbelief might be the best part of healing; it makes the darkness feel so far away.
I still get triggered occasionally, but now I can identify the reasons behind my reactions. I’ve learned how to talk myself down, to regain control.
Embracing Growth
I can’t believe how much I’ve grown—how much I’ve transformed my life into something good.
I’ve created a version of me that I love deeply, someone I know better than anyone else. I’ve built a life where I feel safe enough to be exactly who I am.
It feels wild to say this, but I think I’m capable of creating real, tangible goals now. In the past, I would overanalyze every decision and worry about what I couldn’t control. Now, I can be honest and realistic with myself, and that honesty brings me peace, love, and joy.
Gratitude for Trust in Myself
I have so much love and gratitude for myself—for choosing this path, for doing the work, and for becoming someone I’m proud of.
I’m so, so damn grateful to be me.
As always, don’t forget to share your revelations with me below ♡
Until next time,
Audrey
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