Embracing the Discomfort of Awareness
Life feels deeply uncomfortable when you try to ignore what you can’t escape—whether or not it’s real. Reality doesn’t seem to matter as much as the emotions we assign to it. I’m starting to believe there might be real magic in life—like, actual magic…. the magic of awareness.
Maybe everything really is supposed to be this easy. But I’m terrified to fully embrace that belief. What if I’m wrong?
It’s that uncomfortable space between hope and fear—both of which, according to Spinoza, are emotions that serve no real purpose.
Letting Go of the Need to Know Everything
There’s so much about the world that I’ll never understand, and I’m finally realizing that’s okay. The less I question, the less I spiral, and that stability brings comfort. Maybe peace comes from not needing to know the things I don’t already know.
Whether anything is real, or if anything even matters, all I truly want is to feel okay. Emotional security—that’s what I believe will allow me to achieve everything I want. The question of magic or mysteries? It’s just an idea I can choose to accept or ignore.
Avoiding the Trap of Overthinking
I think many people get stuck trying to prove whether or not certain things are real, losing themselves in the process. I don’t want that for myself. I’ve decided to mind my own business, focus on my life, and stop chasing the answers to questions that don’t matter.
The truth is, I don’t need to understand the universe’s mysteries; I just need to know how to use them to my advantage. These esoteric beliefs don’t define me, even if they’re part of the surreal experiences that come with expanded awareness.
Cultivating Awareness
Not many people make it to this level of awareness and maintain it—it’s too easy to get caught in the traps of the external world. But I plan to keep it. I’m learning to cultivate this awareness, to make it my own.
It’s still a work in progress, but this awakening isn’t as destabilizing as it once was. I may not know how I got here, or if I was even meant to be this aware, but here I am. So, I might as well enjoy it.
Redefining Meaning
Now that I’m more comfortable in this new world, I can see its beauty, excitement, and limitless possibilities. Nothing has pre-assigned meaning anymore—it’s up to me to decide what things mean and what to do with that meaning.
It feels like I’ve finally been given the rules to the game of life, and now it’s my turn to play.
And honestly? I’m starting to really enjoy it.
As always, don’t forget to share your revelations with me below ♡
Until next time,
Audrey
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